Reflecting on 2018

Happy New Year!

I am SO excited to share what I have in store for you all this year because I am here to serve YOU, by challenging you to look at things differently and empowering you to create the life that makes you jump out of bed in the morning. But before we jump into what’s ahead this year, let’s take a look back at the year that was…

Although we are well and truly into the new year, I still felt like I needed to reflect on the past year before I could fully jump into 2019. It’s taken me a few weeks to write this blog because I didn’t feel like I had adequately processed the last 12 months and I needed the time and space to do so. Now as I have begun to wake up from the post-2018-hangover (allllll of the lessons, do you feel me?!) with more clarity and insight, I am finally ready to share this with you.

2018 was packed FULL of lessons which brought me to my knees, time and time again. Just when I felt like I could take a breath, suddenly the rug was pulled out from underneath me yet again. 2018 had the lowest of lows but yet it had some of the greatest highs of my life. And I know this has been the case for so many of you, having spoken to many people who felt like 2018 was such an intense 12 months. I recently said to a friend “Ok, I’ve had enough lessons, can I please just have a break already!”. But she reminded me that life is experience after experience, lesson after lesson and ebbs and flows. For the lessons to cease would mean that any opportunities for growth would also be missed. Life is about learning to ride the wave, instead of fighting against it.

This prompted me to take the proper time and space to explore and reflect upon the past 12 months. When I started to focus on the positives that had resulted from the seemingly low experiences, I was pleasantly surprised to realise that the hardest year of my life was actually also one of the best years of my life. I finally learnt who I really am and to actually accept who I am and what I am here to do. To no longer apologise for simply being me. To realise what I need and want in my life and what no longer serves me. To let go of old habits and limiting beliefs about myself and the world around me. To try new things and become unstuck. To let go and not be so serious and to have some fun! To push myself out of my comfort zone. At times felt like I was going to break, yet I got myself out of bed every damn morning and sometimes that may have been the only thing I accomplished in a day. But had it not been for those moments which tested every single fibre in my being, I would not be where I am today. And where I am today is looking pretty amazing to me! People may say that I have changed but the way I see it is that I am actually just becoming more me and no longer being afraid of who that is.

I’ve learnt that sometimes the Universe will make room for us when we can’t find the strength to do it ourselves. This manifests as things like redundancy, divorce, and toxic relationships ending. We can’t always understand at the time why things happen the way that they do, but we don’t always need to know why. Sometimes we ask why we have been brought to our knees. But instead try asking yourself this: if you hadn’t been brought to your knees, would you be where you are today?

Then just when you thought you’ve surrendered, the Universe asks you to surrender a little more, to have a little more faith and to trust in the timing. Putting total faith in something unknown can be scary because we are letting go of control and trusting that we will be led along the path we are meant to. But the key is to letting go, is to let go of what you think you need and stop trying to control the outcome. Remember: The Universe will only throw at you what you can handle.

So, now is the time to integrate all of the lessons from 2018 and not slip back into old habits and beliefs. It is not the time for us to be playing small or dimming our light. It is time to shine and not get caught up in the heaviness, but instead remember to laugh, to play and not take life too seriously.

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